Sparkles

Soon or later, I have to die. 

Don't come near me if you can't treat me right. 
Don't play with me if you can control yourself. 
I feel like an idiot with or without you already. 
I'm always busy looking for my own peace of mind. 
Do you see sparkles in me? Do you?


This is also a note from my old diary.

Endlessly rehearsing what you wanted to say when it's too late?

Life changes a lot depending on your health, passion, ambitions, friends and people you meet.

If you are healthy, you can really do anything.

I learnt languages (English, Korean, Chinese, Spanish) at the age of 12 on my own will.

Because I knew that I would be an influential musician and change the world so I was passionate to learn anything for my purpose to live.
Yes, I wanted to make a world peace and lives fair. And I believed that I could change the world.

I screwed for some serious health problems though...

Life is almost all about the timing and how you see the world/things, isn't it?

Life itself even changes its own way for good or bad and even for the best or the worst depending on the timing.

I don't wanna regret for doing nothing.

I don't wanna endlessly rehearse what I should have or would have said to someone before it's too late when it's too late.

Depending on the timing, you can even get everything or lose everything.

You know what?

You almost had me but you lost me.

See beyond the obvious...

See?

Decipher The Life

Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards.
It really made sense to me now.

Rhapsody

Trouble is good when you are the trouble.
But it's not as good as it sounds when you are in trouble.
It's like I wanna play the rhapsody but I'm just some notes of the music.
I know you can't play the music without any notes but I prefer to play it and conduct it.
I feel like being a melody right now so I go for some harmony though. I must be tired.

Memories are good when it's beautiful in the past.
But no one knows the truth when someone repaints it.
It's like a nightmare if you lose to it and become a shadow drowning in the past.
I am here in the present because I learn on the way to the futures.
Yes, I move on. I won't run after my yester days anymore.

But Where Is My Love?

I'm free.
Free to flirt and free to fall.

But where are you?

Trap me.
Steal my heart and breath away.

I need someone to knock me out and wake me up.


I don't remember when I wrote this. Probably when I was a teenager.
But these words came up in my mind now again and it painflly makes sense again.

It's all about HEALTH.

Seriously, if you are healthy, you really can do anything.

Today, I was a happiest girl in the world.
Today, I was too happy for the words.
And from now on, I will be the happiest girl (although I'm too old to be called a girl...) in my life, and I'll be too happy for the words.

I'm not used to feel my body this light so I'm still stuck in my sick habits not knowing what to do with this light body all alone though.
But I know I don't need to be in bed forever so I will start from washing my face everyday in the morning and go out at least once a day even for a little walk for myself.
Even if it's all by myself, how exciting is that?!?!?!?

Although I can't change the past, I can change my empty life that I had to lead from now.
And I hope I can make some friends very soon!