生まれてきた時の状況なんて覚えていない。
胎児だった頃の記憶もない。
でも私はこの世に産み落とされた時、きっと泣きながら生まれてきたはずだ。
意識的になのか、無意識なのかは分からない。
それでも、ひたすらあるだけの力を駆使して泣きわめいたに違いない。
でもそれは、悲しいからでも、嬉しいからでもなかったはずで、ただ無防備に、生命が無条件に外に向かって噴き出していたに違いない。
そして私は今を生きている。
無条件にこう生きたいと思う人生を想い描きながら生きている。
芸術家の岡本太郎さんは「芸術は爆発だ」と言う言葉を残した。
私は人生も爆発なんだと思った。
３月は私の誕生月で、今日は私の運命共同体が死んだ日だ。
私は子供の頃から人が死ぬのを何度も見て来た。
だけど、彼女は私に死ではなく、生きるということを見せ付けた唯一の存在。
私も生まれて死に損なってきたからには、自分の命も人生も最大限に有意義なものにして生きたい。
命や人生の意味や質について考えることに興味を無くしたら、何もかもが終わる思う。
I don't remember how I was born.
I don't remember the times when when I was in the womb.
But I know I was born with a cry when I was given a birth to this world.
With or without conscious, I must have exerted all my strength and cried.
It's not because I was sad or happy. I must have burst into a cry with no questions or wonders.
I was just exposed.
And I'm living my own life as I want.
It's not easy to get what I want and catch up with my ideals.
But I can only do what I want. I can't do anything that doesn't interest me.
It's all because I'm stupid and clumsy, but not clever.
I wish I were smart enough to deal to compromise though.
An artist whose name is Taro Okamoto said "Art is an explosion".
I think that the life is also an explosion.
March is the month I was born and today is the day when my one and only soulmate has passed away.
I have seen people's deaths since I was a child.
But she; my one and only dearest soul mate was the one and only precious who taught me and showed me what it's like to live, but not to die.
As long as I was born and I failed to die when I was a teenager, I want to make my life meaningful as much as I want and I can.
I know it equals to the death if I lost interests in thinking about and wondering about the meaning and quality of BIRTH and LIFE.
胎児だった頃の記憶もない。
でも私はこの世に産み落とされた時、きっと泣きながら生まれてきたはずだ。
意識的になのか、無意識なのかは分からない。
それでも、ひたすらあるだけの力を駆使して泣きわめいたに違いない。
でもそれは、悲しいからでも、嬉しいからでもなかったはずで、ただ無防備に、生命が無条件に外に向かって噴き出していたに違いない。
そして私は今を生きている。
無条件にこう生きたいと思う人生を想い描きながら生きている。
芸術家の岡本太郎さんは「芸術は爆発だ」と言う言葉を残した。
私は人生も爆発なんだと思った。
３月は私の誕生月で、今日は私の運命共同体が死んだ日だ。
私は子供の頃から人が死ぬのを何度も見て来た。
だけど、彼女は私に死ではなく、生きるということを見せ付けた唯一の存在。
私も生まれて死に損なってきたからには、自分の命も人生も最大限に有意義なものにして生きたい。
命や人生の意味や質について考えることに興味を無くしたら、何もかもが終わる思う。
I don't remember how I was born.
I don't remember the times when when I was in the womb.
But I know I was born with a cry when I was given a birth to this world.
With or without conscious, I must have exerted all my strength and cried.
It's not because I was sad or happy. I must have burst into a cry with no questions or wonders.
I was just exposed.
And I'm living my own life as I want.
It's not easy to get what I want and catch up with my ideals.
But I can only do what I want. I can't do anything that doesn't interest me.
It's all because I'm stupid and clumsy, but not clever.
I wish I were smart enough to deal to compromise though.
An artist whose name is Taro Okamoto said "Art is an explosion".
I think that the life is also an explosion.
March is the month I was born and today is the day when my one and only soulmate has passed away.
I have seen people's deaths since I was a child.
But she; my one and only dearest soul mate was the one and only precious who taught me and showed me what it's like to live, but not to die.
As long as I was born and I failed to die when I was a teenager, I want to make my life meaningful as much as I want and I can.
I know it equals to the death if I lost interests in thinking about and wondering about the meaning and quality of BIRTH and LIFE.
